I failed as a sister.
I failed as a friend.
I failed as a student.
I failed as a daughter.
I failed as a disciple.
I failed in life.
It was all my fault that things turns out this way.
If i held on tighter on my family all won't happen.
I'm so so weak.
I wish i didn't give up, then....
Forget it.
I'm sorry.

Yellow yellow.
Recently, i have been webcamming my sister, and yihua.
Tonning overnight on the computer.
Smoking my lungs out.
Today, i drank again, i was semi drunk, and i start to speak nonsense.
I talked to my Ahfu.
He can be considered the best among all my uncles.
He's the one that accompany me to drink.
Helps me buy beer, helps me buy cigg.
Then, i started to tell him what happened.
I remember vividly how it all started and what happened.
I should not drink, i hope so.
Ohmyfuck, i'm so so not over it.
Stop your nonsense bitch

I post when i feel like posting.

HELLO HELLO.

I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU FLIRTING BITCH.
I'LL NOT BE A GOOD FRIEND TO YOU ANYMORE.
I'LL MAKE EFFORTS TO.
CAUSE ALL YOU KNOW IS YOUR BOYS BOYS BOYS.

Hahha, hi.
Bye-.-

Hi yo, i tried editing the previous post.
But i disconnected, guess the post wasn't meant to be posted.

Haha, this few days, I'm quite busy and I'm so so tired. I was just wondering if my court case is over and done with, sigh. For a moment, i though it was a good thing if the case is over but on second thoughts, i think it will still be the same. Unknowingly, I'm so affected by this i felt. Even though I'm already so occupied with my daily stuffs, I'm still not over it. Cool uh? What is the use of a blog when i got so many things to say but i can't type it there. How long can i hold onto my thoughts. Hahaha, I talked to him finally! Great great great, help me post-.-.

I saw things i wasn't suppose to see, i knew things i wasn't suppose to know. Even though i wanted to one it. Somehow, i started to think if putting so much effort and time on you & if putting deep feelings in you is really worth in after all. From the start, i already know it's not going to bring me no where, and know there's no hope too. It's just bad seeing the two of you patch.. I know i ruined my own chance. Haha, i was just thinking about my past. The times when 1st became a Christian. & others.
Hahah, i'm lazy to carry on. Might carry on editing.
Bye(L)

Hacker J. has once again invaded into blogs . This is the second time of the day invading into people's blog (: The first time was this morning at Bjorn's blog & now i'm over at Madeline's blog . Helped her to change her blogskin and blogging for her as requested . Well , practically i'm pretty sure that she did nothing today , except for enjoying her beauty sleep while dreaming of _______ . Ha , if you're stupid enough , you'll be counting how many underscores are there but let me tell you this before you say i didn't tell you . Stop counting the blanks , because it's not the number of letters in the person's name . (: Nice game wasn't it , wow ! Anyway , i'm currently talking to Madeline & Mylove online . I shall stop blogging or else some pigs will say that i'm ignoring them over @ Msn . So therefore , i shall stop blogging . Really , i think i should stop blogging . (: Ciaos , (L)

P/s : I love Madeline Ng Weixin (Insert Hearts x9753124680)